crunch.

Back from Hawaii and shit is about to get real. We are 6 weeks out from the biggest event we've ever done as a company and we are so freaking behind. I need to step up my game over the next 6 weeks and get through this shit. I absolutely cannot wait to be finished, but I'm really proud of what I've done in regards to this event. Even through the shittiness of hating my job, I think I was able to deliver big time on the chunk of the event that I owned.

It's time to get serious about a lot of other shit, too. I'm currently dating two men and I feel really good about that. Sex with The Activist is amazing and lovely and he's busy enough that I don't feel smothered, but available enough that I'm getting laid on the regs. He invited me to go to a concert with him and his friends tomorrow (cue shocked face!)... but I'm out of town for a friend's birthday, so I had to decline. Then there's San Jose, who I'm going out with on Monday for our second date. I feel like he has a lot of promise and I'm looking forward to seeing if we have chemistry on this date.

I need to get my fat ass back in the gym. This is a MUST for the next three months. Even if I don't lose a damn pound, I want to get back in shape. I miss being athletic and I miss enjoying my body and loving it. I'm like 65% okay with it and that needs to change.

I'm ready to spend more time in SF - there has been too much travel lately and I miss my adopted city. I love it here. I want to enjoy it more and spend time doing fun shit. I also miss and love my friends, who have made the past four years here an absolute dream. I need to invest more in those relationships, too.

THERE'S JUST SO MUCH TO DO. WHY IS LIFE SO COMPLICATED?

Anyways, I need to pack for Tahoe and finish up some work, but these are the thoughts swirling in my head right now.