ugh... i hate those moments

... when something happens at work that makes you want to stay, even though you're not sure it's the best decision. Had my performance review today and it was good. It's nice to hear people you work with say nice things about you - feeling validated in your work. My old manager basically told me that she thinks that no one else on the team could have done the role that I'm doing on my current project. That feels good. We also talked about international opportunities and roles on bigger projects. All things I want. Sigh. And then they give you an equity letter with all your new stock and you're just like - motherfucker. 

They don't call them golden handcuffs for nothing. Sometimes I am awed by the privileged position I find myself in now. I'm grateful for it, but it doesn't make decision making any easier.

#firstworldproblems