adventure.

I am craving adventure - I can feel it in my bones, in my soul, in the deepest core of my being. I just want something new. It doesn't even really matter what it is. I feel like a prisoner in my own life. It's the same shit, day-in and day-out, and I really just want something fresh and new to bring me out of this funk. There's the job aspect of things. I have thoughts of leaving my current company, as well as a brand new idea to just take a sabbatical from my current job to go and do something new and different. I'm dreaming of Europe, of New Orleans, of tropical paradise.

I'm not meant to be caged. It works for a little bit - I feel content and happy and warm, but then my mind starts to wander and I just want new and exciting adventures to make me feel something. I feel dead inside most days. There's the rare exception - nights out dancing with friends, the exhilaration of travel, long conversations with people I love - but in general, I feel this sense of nothing. Wake up, go to work, come home, rinse and repeat. Nothing to really be excited about. No men, no new job, no new scenery. I want change. Something different. Something new.

Pray for me, please, because when I get like this I tend to do stupid (usually slutty) things.