attitude adjustment.

I've been in a bad mood for a really long time. Part of it is work - actually, most of it is work. Part of it is life, though. Life Coach says I'm running from something and that's why I've been taking so many vacations. She's probably right. She's usually right. I think that with all of my job unhappiness, I'm just tired of my life and I find any excuse I can to just check out. Hence the ridiculous amount of traveling that happened in 2014. Now, it's time for me to find happiness in the spot I'm currently in, instead of dreaming of something else. At least for a little bit.

We changed desks at work this week. Now, we're upstairs on a higher floor and my desk faces a window. Everything is new and I'm not going to lie, the difference environment just feels so much better. I think getting direct sunlight every day is making me feel better about my life. Baby steps. I'm trying to get more involved in life in SF - looking for cool events to attend, being more open and saying yes when people ask me to do things. I'm hoping that it improves my mood.

I'm also just trying to enjoy my job - the perks and the negatives. I'm embracing it all and trying to come up with a plan for how I can be a better event manager. I want to develop more of my creative skills, work on different kinds of events, and really stretch myself as far as my career. I think this year I allowed myself to get stagnant - hell, I needed to be stagnant - after the craziness of last year and the blood clot of this year. Now, I'm ready to get back into being healthier - mentally, physically, and emotionally. The rest of September is going to be a whirlwind of activity, but I'm ready to get my shit together. Game on.