We're coming up to the end of Q1 and all I can think about is the fact that I am ready for change in my life. I'm ready to seek it out, to grab it, to embrace it wholeheartedly. I'm learning to discern what things about my life need to change and which areas I'm okay with. I've never been afraid of doing things differently or fighting for what I want, but lately I've gotten a bit lazy and I want to get over that. I've been struggling a lot this year - with my body, my mind, and my spirit. I think it's good. I think it's leading me somewhere that I need to go. I'm not sure if this is going to be the easiest year. I mean, between blood clots and the stagnation of my job, it's already kind of crappy. I have faith, though, that things are going to be better because I'm going to make them better. I'm going to do what I have to do to get where I need to be, which is always my way.
I'm reexamining everything in my life. My job, my friendships, my routines, my vices, and my virtues. Some things will have to go and others will be allowed to stay, but I've decided that I have to set boundaries. I've lost sight of that in the past couple of years and while I enjoy being open and honest and free, it isn't always in my best interest to tell everyone everything or to be myself in all situations. Sometimes being guarded isn't a bad thing - it's self-preservation. I used to be a person who understood that, but I lost sight of it. Recent events have reminded me of that fact recently and I think I'm ready to learn that lesson.
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