Vest told me to blog about something interesting. There really is nothing interesting going on in my life right now, so I will just blog. I will probably be pulling an all-nighter to get all my shit done before tomorrow. Hosting a party is hard work!
I'm saddened by the lack of men in my life, but at the same time, I'm kind of feeling a bit lazy and icky, so maybe it's for the best. This is definitely nowhere near my longest sexual drought, but I miss flirtation. I have pretty much no prospects right now, though. The holidays always seem to be a huge dating drought. I wish something fun would happen while I'm home in New York, but the likelihood is that I will just see 10 movies with Cindy and spend a lot of time at my parents' house in my pajamas. I've even stopped waxing, that's how bleak shit is.
I had my first workout with my new trainer today. I'm really going to start recommitting myself to fitness. I've lost so many parts of my personality over the years, and many of them I don't miss. I'm not as shy as I used to be. I'm way more comfortable with sex and sexuality than I've ever been before. I am no longer afraid to be myself. However, I miss my old athleticism. I've found all the changes to my body and my weight gain really interesting over the past couple of years. My trainer was asking me if I was overweight as a child, which sparked my memories of being much smaller. My best friend in middle school would call me grasshopper, because I was long-legged and slender. Most of that was due to my insane workout regimen aka playing every sport under the sun. I will say this - my parents forced me to do a lot of shit I hated, but sports - that was one of the best things I was forced to do. I was on the swim team, played lacrosse, field hockey, and volleyball. I miss those days.
I get into random bouts of working out - a 30 day boot camp here or there - times when I'm really focused on putting my body through the ringer. Lately, I just haven't had the motivation. I've gone a good 18 months without really focusing on my body and I hate it. I have no desire to be thin (Team #thicksnack forever), but I am not loving all of the areas where my weight has settled. If I could get on that Nicki Minaj track, that would be awesome. I love food, so I'm never going to be one of those girls who is like OMG SALAD ALL DAY EVERYDAY. So, in exchange I need to tap into my youthful love of workouts and get my booty moving. The session was good today - I like her and I think we're going to really work on a holistic plan to improve my overall health. Yay!
Okay, this is already too long and I have cleaners coming in T minus 4 hours. Happy holidays!
1) Salad is bullshit. As shown on this tumblr: http://womenlaughingalonewithsalad.tumblr.com/
ReplyDelete2) I actually get so bored with the idea of "going to the gym" or "working out" and have found that setting a more athletically-oriented goal, like running a certain distance or in a certain time, is much more motivating and more likely to actually make me stick with getting regular exercise. Alternatively, many people I know have enjoyed doing active things through MeetUp group type of organizations. Picking an activity that interests them, like volleyball, soccer, kickball, hiking, rock climbing, etc. and signing up for leagues, teams, or outings. Not only does it encourage physical activity, but it's a lot more social, perhaps leading to new friendships or you know, single dudes. :)
haha love that tumblr!
ReplyDeleteyeah, i think that i like group sports and group exercise like boot camps. i also played a lot of sports when i was younger, so that kind of thing appeals to me. but i need to raise my base level of fitness before i would feel comfy joining, but yeah - lots of single dudes at those things for sure. there are a few SF sports leagues that sound interesting.