i'm actually doing it.

I am kind of hyperventilating a little bit as I type this, but I've started a serious house hunt in the Bay Area. I don't know what I'm getting into, and I'm scared as fuck, but home ownership is something that may be within my grasp in the next 6 months! I took a look at a property on Friday - it was gorgeous, but a little too suburban for me for right now. Today I'm going to an open house, and I've gone through about 600 listings to find something that can work for me. Shit is real.

I think I'm ready for some type of adulthood. I want to get my shit together before I turn 30. I like many aspects of my life, but there are things that need fixing and dreams that need achieving. I think I've gotten to a good place at work - the storm cloud has lifted and I've committed to moving forward with my career. I want to get promoted this year, and I think it's within reach. The one thing that's really been irking me is my home situation.

My apartment was a really great first apartment for SF. I lucked into this amazing situation where I live in a ginormous place by myself, in a neighborhood near a bunch of my friends. However, there's still something unsatisfying about it. I think it's mostly because it's "not mine." I can't really do anything to it - can't paint, can't get a washer/dryer, can't have a pet. Not to mention the downsides of the actual property - not in a neighborhood I love, my heat is always on (seriously, my apartment stays at 80 degrees most days), there isn't any laundry in the building, and no dishwasher. I want someplace I can put my mark on. 

So now I'm taking all these steps. I'm looking into my finances and working with a loan agent. I hate that I have to pay the "singles tax" - fucking people in relationships. Sometimes I wish I had a man for purely financial reasons. I have a real estate agent lined up (a friend of a friend). I'm going for it! This is insanity, but it's time for me to get my shit together. 2015 is going to be that year. #growingup