I hate being sick. I am the worst sick person in the history of sick people. I can't bring myself to get out of bed, I stop showering for long periods of time, and I get so lazy that I refuse to eat for days. It's really not okay. Don't worry, though - I showered both yesterday and today, so I am actually somewhat clean =) I think my body is telling me that I need to slow the fuck down. Going from the cruise, which was a massive exercise in poor decisions (both with alcohol and with men), straight to an offsite for work was a bad idea. I immediately felt feverish in Santa Barbara and the flight back was agony. I took Thursday and Friday to work at home and I've basically been a recluse ever since. I also feel this strange melancholy where I pretty much can't deal with socialization. So I've said no to a bunch of outings because I just can't handle the social pressure, especially when my body feels like crap.
Tomorrow, I leave for a day trip to Vegas, which is exactly the wrong thing for my body, but I need to do it for work. I have been slacking hardcore at my job lately and I need to figure out a way to push through this. I think a lot of it is my whole blood clot thing and then being sick on top of it, but I need to figure out how I'm going to make this shit happen because I can't continue to be this unmotivated or there will be consequences. I don't know if I'm burned out from 2013 or what, but I need to step my shit up. I'm not usually like this.
One thing I have been doing is watching epic amounts of television - True Detective, House of Cards, Breaking Bad. ALL SO GOOD. Being sick is good for something at least. I also finished the last Divergent book! Anyway, I have a lot of work to get done, so time to get onto that. Hoping to get at least 4 hours of sleep tonight, if possible!
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