waiting is the hardest part.

I am so bad at waiting for things. I'm probably the most impatient person on Earth. I think it has me on edge this week - waiting to hear back about new job opportunities, both within my company and outside of it. I just hit that wall where I know change needs to happen. I think I'm ready to grow up and enter the next phase of my life. I want a career, not a job. I want a real relationship, not a stream of mediocre hookups punctuated by men that I think I could be with, but where things just never seem to work out. I want a new wardrobe. I want to lose the weight I've packed on in these past three years. I want a new life. An exciting new life that makes me feel exhilarated. I really hope that's not too much to ask.