Today was a crazy day - work, running errands, and then meeting with my new sex coach. I'm considering going into the field of sex education and sex coaching, so I've decided to see one and get a first-hand view of what exactly that entails. I swear I'll write about that, but not tonight (sorry, Vest!). The other part of my day has been exploring other options with my career.
I'm excited and terrified. There's a piece of me that has been so unhappy with my job that I want to run from it, kicking and screaming. Then, there's this other piece of me that loves the "devil I know." I'm scared to branch out and leave a place where I feel comfortable and everything is old hat. I've never really run from change before, so I'm trying to embrace it - to crave it, to work for it, and hopefully if it comes, to charge headfirst into the unknown. I just don't know if I'm ready yet. I think I am. I want to feel challenged at work - I want to be scared. I'm no longer afraid of anything at my job. I know where I fit in and I know how to succeed. I want the opportunity to fail. I think that's when I shine the most, when everything isn't clear cut and I have the realization that I could fuck everything up. That's where I do my best work. I need to get to that place.
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